Selamat Hari Raya...

My very first Hari Raya... For the first time I sorta celebrated Hari Raya and be part of it... I dont know if it's gonna be the last... Although I grew up in a multi-racial country, it was still a culture shock somehow... I juz couldnt blend in I guess... It's hard maybe because he is more than juz a friend... I feel the pressure... it's weighing me down... The hand shake, the food and the language... juz makes me feel like an outsider, a foreigner... Im a misfit... Ppl r friendly though... but I juz feel really distant and awkward... It's hard... very hard and nobody will understand exactly how is it like...