Vivo City

The EXTREMELY huge Xmas tree...

What a cute deer...

And look at how detailed they made the MALE deer...

Im juz craving for some FRESH milk... hehe...

That's really idiotic and embarrassing... lol...

CnT Reunion

CnT

FINALLY ALL IN!!!

Vien refusing to accept the fact that she is the shortest... lol

The opposite of clear is blur... LOL...

That's vien acting lame... haha...

After so many years... we finally had a proper reunion last Tuesday... haha... We had sushi for dinner... and they seemed to taste extremely good... lol... maybe coz I was so happy that my taste buds on the sweet section were super active... haha... I have to say I really missed those days in South View with them... Vien's lameness, Mun's cheerfulness and Qin's quietness... We have it all; like a whole package... haha... Really hope we can do this more regularly and that our friendship can last as long as we live... Love u guys alot alot... :) Stay crazy yall...

Wow... that's long... haha... I almost forgotten abt my blog... lol... I do have alot to share... well... wait till I get all my picx... An illustrated entry makes it more real and interesting dont yall think... haha... till then... stay tuned...

Thwarted plan

A mood that didnt correspond to the ambience and occasion... An outcome that was not predicted... That's all that's in my mind... I took a risk that costed me all good images I pictured... Perhaps the main course was SOOO delicious that it outshined the dessert... If one is too stuffed by the main course even the best dessert is as good as trash... No matter how well planned, how much effort put in... never expect too much... Well... it's juz not good enough I believe... Let's juz say the "main course" is too good... Anyway I cant turn back time even if I want to, can I?

Sweet memories; painful reality

Time is the best remedy for all wounds... Now Im starting to question that saying... Is time worthy of that title??? After so many years... some things I juz cant change and will nv change... One's heart is the most challenging code for human to decipher and I failed to even decipher my very own code... Knowing that I can nv turn back time, yet I yearn for the years we shared... No matter how many things I threw, I kept what's from u safe... They looked exactly like how they were 9 years ago... Everytime I open up the box of memories... I could almost feel u beside me... only to wake up realising I lost u long ago... I can no longer deny how much I miss u all these while... I dont expect u to feel the same... Juz wonder if I ever appeared in ur dreams??? Do u still think abt us once in awhile... Those promises... The emblem of our friendship before signing off... Do u still remember??? You r my wound, a wound that Im gonna carry for the rest of my life... Still... Im glad I once had u as my friend and sincerely hope that u will be happy and well always...

New Sem...

Im FINALLY back to my lovely class... back to the arms of my friends... haha... Im glad... My timetable is juz average... Not exactly fabulous... but definitely better than the past two sems... haha... No matter what, as long as Im back to the class... Im happy... Dont wanna imagine sch without them... It's hell... Modules this sem r really tough... I wonder how am I gonna pull through it... haha... Well... should see how things go... till then...

Selamat Hari Raya...

My very first Hari Raya... For the first time I sorta celebrated Hari Raya and be part of it... I dont know if it's gonna be the last... Although I grew up in a multi-racial country, it was still a culture shock somehow... I juz couldnt blend in I guess... It's hard maybe because he is more than juz a friend... I feel the pressure... it's weighing me down... The hand shake, the food and the language... juz makes me feel like an outsider, a foreigner... Im a misfit... Ppl r friendly though... but I juz feel really distant and awkward... It's hard... very hard and nobody will understand exactly how is it like...

Motorshow

That's Sharmaine and me at work...

Russ and Paul Swift... They r good... haha...

My fav show girl... She looks alot better in real I swear...

After work...

Hey guys... If there's anyone still reading my blog... haha... It's been a long time I know... Alot of things to say but juz to lazy to put them into words... lol... Alright... Let's start with my temp job at the motorshow... The job is good... ppl r sweet... Edwin(1 of my boss) and Fabian have to be Sharmaine and my favourites... haha... They juz help spice things up with all the nonsense and make time pass so much faster... Unfortunately I got no pictures of them to show... so sad... Got to know alot of weird ppl during the motorshow too... Only Sharmaine knows what I mean... haha... Lastly really wanna thank Sharmaine for giving me this job... Thanks hun... Love ya... OH YAH!!! The the "Dog Shit" from Thailand... haha... they r good... merci..

Visited Dajie's blog... Hmmm... interesting entry indeed... What's love... I hope I have the answer to that "been-ard-for-so-long-yet-nobody-could-give-a-definite-answer" question... Relationship is juz so fragile and vulnerable despite it's old age... The age of relationship means nothing but figures... And marriage is nothing but a piece of processed wood... A wedding banquet is nothing more than juz a sumptuous dinner... Yes Im blabbering again... coz at this point of time... I believe none of those crapz... till then...

Went for my second driving lesson... I think it was a disaster... couldnt stay focus at all... All I can think of is "when is the lesson gonna end..." So tiring!!! Tonight there seem to have alot more cars in the circuit... I juz went... brake and go brake and go... I hate the clutch!!! I hate the seat... Basically I hate everything abt the car... haha... I dont know... maybe its juz me... Juz when I allow my soul to wonder off for afew seconds... I nearly ram into another car's buttock... That hammered my soul back... shall stop here for today... till then

Attended Terry's Bday party with the usual 5 plus yeong yih on sat... The party was okay... pretty fun... but still overall a sucky sat... not the first time anyway... so nvm abt the elaborating part...

Saw Liting's bf for the very first time... HAHA... Weeks ago she was still frowning and stuff now she's the happiest girl alive... LOL... She looked all radiant... glowing from the nourishing of LOVE... Im very happy for u, sister... Now u get ur happily ever after... Congrats...

Boring day today... so bored that I read da vinci code again... anyway... I fell in love with a couple of chinese songs lately... Juz kept repeating those songs... haha...

I dont know why I decided to blog today... lol... like blog for the sake of blogging... laugh for the sake of laughing... So much I wanna say but I cannot utter anything... not even a word of my thoughts...

Met my cousin at paragon to have dinner at soup spoon today... haha... then went ard to shop and ran into some weird and ridiculous ppl... haha... nvm abt that part... It's juz really funny... Only my cousin can entertain those kinda ppl i guess... lol...

Had my first driving lesson... SCARY!!! alot of ppl told me I wont get to drive on my first lesson and FREAK!!! I did drove... In fact throughout the lesson... The moment the instructor said "we change seat" I juz cursed whoever who told me I wont drive on the first lesson... I was so freaking NERVOUS... It's super tiring to drive... I dont think I enjoy driving as much as I thought I would... I prefer to be driven ard I guess... haha... Well... bottomline is I survived today's lesson and no one's hurt... hehe...

Happy Bday Qing Wen

HAPPY BDAY QING WEN

Look at how badly liting spoilt the cake!!!

The cake is sinfully good... haha...

Happily eating (with 2 spoons and left yan with none...)

That's the sore loser in the middle... haha...

WE TOTALLY DOMINATED THE GAME!!! lol

Went out to celebrate Qing Wen's Bday on Wed... Had alot of fun at Minds Cafe... Haha... We played Taboo throughout the session and obviously my team (inculsive of Liting and Johnson) dominated the game and ron ron wasnt very happy abt it... He was like telling qw and zy "ni men bu yao yi zhi chi leh... cai leh..." HAHA... damn cute...

Haiz... life is so unpredictable and vulnerable... I hope whatever qw wished for that night will all come true... We all prefer the old cheeky and evil qing wen... haha...

AHHH... I think Im damn dumb!!! I went to wash my contact lenses container when I didnt even wear my contacts today!!! yes... I washed my newly replaced contact lenses down the pipes!!! ARGHHH... FREAK!!! The worst thing is I realised it at least after 2 hrs after I washed my container!!! MADNESS... Really dont know what's wrong... Im like... changed... maybe Im really tired already... Im actually fine with not talking anymore... Nv been what I am now... Juz what's with me??? whatever...

Went out with garce last Sunday... EAT AND EAT AND EAT... A sinful day out for me seriously... LOL... Unfortunately Shipei was unable to join us coz of work... so sad... As usual... spent HELL ALOT... Im damn broke seriously... haha... Anyone with extra cash u can share it with me... hehe... Had a good catching up with grace after so long... I glad... Went to check out price for Haagen Dazs Mooncake... It's a bomb!!! Well... I still think Im gonna buy them for some ppl... lol... Hope to meet up again soon, girl...

Dinner after exam

None of our group picx is good... so disappointing...

Okay... I took this picx... Look at our ron ron's face... so hilarous...

Zhiyan, Khusairi, me and liting after dinner...

As usual the 3 of us... hehe...

Finally exam's over... Last paper suckx big time... I hope there will be moderation... Academic aside... Time for a good rest and lotsa play... haha... Went out with the class to have dinner at fish & co. in Bugis... Quite fun... LOL... I swear Im nv going to the fish & co. there ever again... I embarrassed myself HUGE... HAHA... damn malu... It all started with ice water... Absurd I know... They took real long to serve all of us ice water... Unfortunately Im one of the last few who got it... nvm... Im cool... When the waiter served me my ice water, I blurted something like "Huh! Why my ice water so little... " I dont know why I said it... not like I mind the amt of ice water but I juz blabbered... The funny thing is I thought I was very soft but infact everyone heard me??? lol... they starting laughing as usual... THE WORST PART IS THE WAITER HEARD ME!!! AHHHH.... and the wanted to add more water for me... SO MALU right... haiz... I juz wished I was invisible then... haha...

An awry destiny...
A leading on...
A deception...
A devastation...

The inability to move on...
The misery...
The covets...
The trip...

Is it how it's supposed to be???
I wished for mercy...

So many many things happen recently... to friends around me and perhaps myself too...

Hey shipei... gotta take care of ur own health yah sister, before things get worse... Stop all ur chocolate and junk food indulgence... Watch ur diet girl... Eat fresh... Hope u will get better soon... See ya soon...

And to my sister in school, Liting... I totally understand how u feel... Juz loosen up alittle... Fairy tales always comes with a happy ending... For urs... dont juz stop there... Ya'll will carry on with a happy beginning... haha... Hopefully I can witness all the different chapters u wrote in ur life...

That's ron ron making a mess... cant really tell from the picx thou what a waste... haha...


The cafe is really cozy... love the lighting and ambience...


On Tuesday the usual 6 went out again... After sch we went to bugis to hang out... We were like exams' over, happily enjoying ourselves... haha... Went to J.Co cafe to chill alittle... had donuts and some ice cream... hehe... After Liting left us for work the guys went to play pool and zhiyan and I went to walk ard... haha... u guys can only envy me for what I saw... lol... When we r done we went to meet the boys... For the very first time I played pool... haha... totally embarrassment... joke of the day... lol... Got home real late...

Disney Naturally

That's our minnie's secret... SHHHH...

Went to Disney Naturally ytd!!! It's the first disney fastfood outlet in Asia if I didnt get my facts wrong... hehe... So happy... Makes us feel young again... The whole place is just sooo CUTE!!! Food is not bad... At least our pizza is good... Drinks are good... Everything is juz right... BUT! Us being in the outlet is kinda a misfit... It's filled with little kids and their parents... Im fine but Azlin feels awkward... the pictures tell it all... haha... Well... cant blame an old man can we... LOL... till then...

A wednesday so close to perfection

Finally our building sensor presentation is OVER!!! A big thank you to my groupmates... good job guys... LOL... Although there's alittle flaws, let's be glad that we r over it ya... Sch ends really early today... no APEL+no Prata=Yayness... haha... Went out with ron ron(aka aaron aka xiao liang) and liting for lunch at Soup Spoon and a little shopping spree juz before liting goes to work... Yesss... We burnt our pockets again... as usual... After that, the two of us went to fool ard in liting's work place... Trying the funny looking coat... hehex... Been so long since we all hang out after sch on Wednesday; so sad... Parts of us are missing (Johnson, Qing Wen and Zhi Yan).

That's our baby bro ron ron and my sis right there... haha...

Yesss... Our trophies after the spree... LOL

EH JONHSON!!! Who says we gonna bully ron ron!?! He enjoyed himself today okay!!! haha...

Absence makes my heart ponders...
Presence makes my brains suffer...
That's my contradiction...

A soul lost in a tranquil and lulling night...
Struggling to seek for the end of eternity...
Juz like the earth revolving around the sun...
She couldnt get any answer...

An interesting day indeed... The fastest Tuesday past... haha... We had Compprog assignment and quiz today... As usual, we were busy cracking our brains to think how to copy instead of solving the questions... LOL... Oppx... Well... Liting is the best... She juz did everything so blatantly... Her style... haha... Throughout the whole quiz... We were giggling and the teacher kept saying "No talking pls... Caught get zero arh..." Not very effective obviously...

After sch, Liting and I took Yeong Yih's car to Ang Moh Kia... nearer to choa chu kang... hehe... On the way... He kept cursing other drivers... Hilarious... And the worst thing he did was to say "HAHA... LOSER!" when he saw a "L" plate car... So evil... Oh well... he's got ISSUES... so forget it... Still thanks for the ride sister...

Since young... I follow my heart more than using my brain to think and analyse situations... Probably there's only water left in my skull by now... The more I choose to listen to my heart the more it fails me... So many I-should'nt-have... Well... too late...

Recently, I understood that getting to know someone is not a matter of time... u can stay with someone for 5 years and still not know him/her... Some get married within 3 months after getting hitched and end up a happy couple... Whatever that appears to be is very shallow... The challenge is getting the key to his/her heart... I believe alot of ppl recognise that fact... but how many actually succeeded in doing so??? Not me definitely...

2 people, emotionally attached, and spiritually combined as one is what I call a couple... including gays and lesbians... That's hard to achieve even for us... if they r able to do it... they r meant to be... they made for each other... regardless of race and religion...

***I think Im born to fail...

Long Day

It was a long day at sch today... 9am to 9pm... by the time I get home was like 11pm??? I dont know what Im doing... juz wanna keep myself busy; wear myself out so that I can sleep better at night I guess... Dont wanna post anything emotional today... so this is it... Im extremely exhausted... Till then ppl...

Juz when I thought things are gonna get better... We made a U-turn back to square one... We always have to make choices in life and today I made alot of wrong and unwise choices... Went to Lido and had my fav. chicken teriyaki from subway "alone"... I believe one's mood affect one's taste buds... The worst sandwich ever Ever EVER... I didnt went home straight after that... I went walking ard places ard my area... Juz keep walking aimlessly as if I lost my way... Indeed... perhaps I really did... From lot 1 to my estate and to little guilin and to westmall then back home... Juz kept walking and walking as if I had a destination to head to.. The weight of my bag juz seem so light all of a sudden... My legs carried me like I had no mass... By the time I get home then I start to feel something... aching of my shoulders, pain from broken blisters on my feet coz of my dumb shoes... Well... nothing beats the sucky mood Im experiencing...

Smell of explosives linger
Why the frequent eruptions
The aftermath is appalling

That angel, receded
Now totally consumed
I'm struggling to find that inner peace

My mind, my body and my soul
taken over by the evil
I lost my nature

Another Saturday out...

Thank god you're back... sooo much of complaints I want you to hear... LOL... well... weekends always flies... damn... hate the fact that it's ending soon... then MONDAY AGAIN... AHHHHHX... So many projects and assignments but Im pretending not to see... HAHA... that's bad I know...
Bottomline... I will make sure I hand in all of them on time... Shall stop here for today...

Disgusting Day...

WORST day of my life... It's amazing how someone can change so rapidly... and how sarcastic one can be... Sarcastic to the max and filled with lots of drama... Gheez... Why is it always have to be monday... the monday bluez is bad enough... oh well maybe one is going through some "verbal diarrhea"... It's okay... at least I saw what I deserve to see... Enough of all pretenses... Always trying so hard to uphold a GOOD image isnt it tiring... so unreal... no more comments... juz diff frequencies...

Although it's only gonna be afew days but I still feel kinda odd without u there nagging... "What time already still havent sleep... Tmr u got sch eh... Where is ur discipline!?" HAHA... Good luck for ur games and most importantly BE SAFE!
Thanks for the day and the sinful dinner... LOL...

Dying

I'm SOOO caught up... so many things on my mind that I dont know how to pen them down...

Juz...
You left me a scuba tank with NO AIR;
You're KILLING ME!!!

Run, Liying, RUN...

Ended sch early today... Went home and had lunch with mummy... Wanted to complete my BCM report after lunch but no drive at all... So I rested till ard 5plus and went for a run instead... The weather was lovely... The sun was so bright yet gentle... Occasional breeze... Everything SEEMED perfect... Put on my earpiece and I started chasing my own shadow... Dont ask me why... I know it's crazy... Even though I ran the usual route and at the same speed but today, every min is like hours... I dont seem to be able to reach the end I juz cant see it... My mind is so occupied that the music in my ears could barely be heard... Alot of pictures and scenes kept bubbling up in my mind... Things that seemed to happen only yesterday... so vivid; so fresh... Good or bad??? I dont know... I dont wish to think... There I go; running away again... where to??? No idea... Juz keep chasing pavement and shadow...

My Suay Day

A series of unfortunate events indeed... It's like my soul went floating somewhere... Totally not myself... First I messed up the lesson time... Woke up at 6am thinking that I have lesson at 9am, infact lesson starts at 10am on every tue... Well I realised it in time so not TOO bad... After bathing I went back to sleep obviously, and I ended up overslept!!! manx... Blur and half awake, I rushed out of the house wearing SLIPPERS when I have 2 lab sessions!!! I was like SHITTT!!! For one of my lab lesson I brought the wrong book... goodness me... The best part and joke of the day was that... I laughed so hard at raymond that my knee ram into the edge of the cupboard!!! ouch...it hurts... I thought it's gonna be juz a blue black but I kinda cut myself so the wound started bleeding... Liting and Zhiyan still have the cheeks to laugh... That's what u guys call SISTER ya??? well... that's abt it for my suay day... BAD ENOUGH!!!

Change...

First day of sch, whole morning I was filled with rage... A bad start obviously... A mixture of fluster and perplex threw me into abstraction for the whole day...

The same drop,
the same sound,
the same person only the different mood and frame of mind...
The absence of one sets everything to unfamiliarity...
Unacceptable changes,
I'm forced to embrace...
Words were not told,
My feelings not known...
"Why" is the word
but cast aside...
So much to express
I couldnt open my mouth...
Wondering inside,
will one ever know...

Sch's starting in 2 days time... I don't know I'm happy or sad... I've sooo much to do but I completed none during the term break... Home alone today, and I did nothing but rot... haha... as usual for me... I've been really moody these few days... I dont know why... It's like somethings there but it dont feel like it is... okay I'm talking in riddles... I don't even know what I'm talking abt now... I get lost easy I guess... Sometimes I know the answer to all my problems but I juz don't wish to see it... Juz need someone to confirm and reassure me...

Talked to Khui a couple of times... He claims that I've changed... Not so positive changes... haha... yah... maybe... I dont know... not as "hot blooded" as before for everything I guess... I tend to run away now I realised too... We r adaptable animal I think... Or rather we need to be... the earth still spin without us... the sun still shine if I die... no one can change that fact... so we gotta make changes to fit in... at the very least to survive in the situation that I'm living in... I hope u can still feel for me, khui and get what I'm trying to put across here... No matter how I change u guys will always sit somewhere in me... Too much that we've been through together to deny u guys from my VIP seats... haha...

Yet another sinful lunch

ENVY US!!!

My share of dessert...

Yummy...

Cmon sister... The chicken is already dead!

My fav. MUSHROOM soup

Met up with Shipei today... Finally she got the time for me... haha... Went to have lunch at New York New York... hehe... nice... Then walk around and thanks to shipei for mentioning MOF!!! Damn... make me have the urge to have dessert and I DID!!! LOL... Well... I burnt alot of cash but not calories today... haha... Oh yah... I ran into laveen!!! haha... Miss ya ex-classmate... lol... see ya soon...

Monday in town

"WAIT! juz hang in there... One more shot!!!"


I'm sorry... Couldnt resist... Haha...

That's the first time I ate so many donuts at one go... SINFUL!!! haha... Went to cine to watch shaolin girl ytd, while waiting for the movie to start we had donutx... ahaha... Not exactly a nice movie... kinda lame I feel... Oh yah... we parked the car at takashimaya for abt 6 hrs and we paid $15++.... Shock of our lives... haha... went home ard 8 plus... ate dinner at 9 plus at Choa Chu Kang Park... with grace... it's more like supper already I feel... Overall... A nice day spent...

A gathering FINALLY!

My SISTERS... short of one thou... the most important one...


It says: "Fight for children!!! (Children have the right to eat lollipop)" Khui thanks for the top... it fits juz nice... very cute... haha...



They r acting lame... yes...

So proud of u... U're a man now... haha...

Went over to Da jie's place for dinner... very sumptuous meal... LOL... Finally had a proper gathering... it's been so long... I miss those day when we all hang out in coffeebean and talk crapz... Now we r busy with our own stuff, kinda sad, meeting lesser and lesser... Well... Im glad our friendship r still the same... I had a great time eating, playing wii... HAHA... MANZ... Im a super lousy gamer I must admit... my character juz cannot go the proper way I want it to go... haha... so funny... Shall see u guys soon... let's do this more often...