Thwarted plan

A mood that didnt correspond to the ambience and occasion... An outcome that was not predicted... That's all that's in my mind... I took a risk that costed me all good images I pictured... Perhaps the main course was SOOO delicious that it outshined the dessert... If one is too stuffed by the main course even the best dessert is as good as trash... No matter how well planned, how much effort put in... never expect too much... Well... it's juz not good enough I believe... Let's juz say the "main course" is too good... Anyway I cant turn back time even if I want to, can I?

Sweet memories; painful reality

Time is the best remedy for all wounds... Now Im starting to question that saying... Is time worthy of that title??? After so many years... some things I juz cant change and will nv change... One's heart is the most challenging code for human to decipher and I failed to even decipher my very own code... Knowing that I can nv turn back time, yet I yearn for the years we shared... No matter how many things I threw, I kept what's from u safe... They looked exactly like how they were 9 years ago... Everytime I open up the box of memories... I could almost feel u beside me... only to wake up realising I lost u long ago... I can no longer deny how much I miss u all these while... I dont expect u to feel the same... Juz wonder if I ever appeared in ur dreams??? Do u still think abt us once in awhile... Those promises... The emblem of our friendship before signing off... Do u still remember??? You r my wound, a wound that Im gonna carry for the rest of my life... Still... Im glad I once had u as my friend and sincerely hope that u will be happy and well always...

New Sem...

Im FINALLY back to my lovely class... back to the arms of my friends... haha... Im glad... My timetable is juz average... Not exactly fabulous... but definitely better than the past two sems... haha... No matter what, as long as Im back to the class... Im happy... Dont wanna imagine sch without them... It's hell... Modules this sem r really tough... I wonder how am I gonna pull through it... haha... Well... should see how things go... till then...

Selamat Hari Raya...

My very first Hari Raya... For the first time I sorta celebrated Hari Raya and be part of it... I dont know if it's gonna be the last... Although I grew up in a multi-racial country, it was still a culture shock somehow... I juz couldnt blend in I guess... It's hard maybe because he is more than juz a friend... I feel the pressure... it's weighing me down... The hand shake, the food and the language... juz makes me feel like an outsider, a foreigner... Im a misfit... Ppl r friendly though... but I juz feel really distant and awkward... It's hard... very hard and nobody will understand exactly how is it like...

Motorshow

That's Sharmaine and me at work...

Russ and Paul Swift... They r good... haha...

My fav show girl... She looks alot better in real I swear...

After work...

Hey guys... If there's anyone still reading my blog... haha... It's been a long time I know... Alot of things to say but juz to lazy to put them into words... lol... Alright... Let's start with my temp job at the motorshow... The job is good... ppl r sweet... Edwin(1 of my boss) and Fabian have to be Sharmaine and my favourites... haha... They juz help spice things up with all the nonsense and make time pass so much faster... Unfortunately I got no pictures of them to show... so sad... Got to know alot of weird ppl during the motorshow too... Only Sharmaine knows what I mean... haha... Lastly really wanna thank Sharmaine for giving me this job... Thanks hun... Love ya... OH YAH!!! The the "Dog Shit" from Thailand... haha... they r good... merci..

Visited Dajie's blog... Hmmm... interesting entry indeed... What's love... I hope I have the answer to that "been-ard-for-so-long-yet-nobody-could-give-a-definite-answer" question... Relationship is juz so fragile and vulnerable despite it's old age... The age of relationship means nothing but figures... And marriage is nothing but a piece of processed wood... A wedding banquet is nothing more than juz a sumptuous dinner... Yes Im blabbering again... coz at this point of time... I believe none of those crapz... till then...

Went for my second driving lesson... I think it was a disaster... couldnt stay focus at all... All I can think of is "when is the lesson gonna end..." So tiring!!! Tonight there seem to have alot more cars in the circuit... I juz went... brake and go brake and go... I hate the clutch!!! I hate the seat... Basically I hate everything abt the car... haha... I dont know... maybe its juz me... Juz when I allow my soul to wonder off for afew seconds... I nearly ram into another car's buttock... That hammered my soul back... shall stop here for today... till then