Disgusting Day...

WORST day of my life... It's amazing how someone can change so rapidly... and how sarcastic one can be... Sarcastic to the max and filled with lots of drama... Gheez... Why is it always have to be monday... the monday bluez is bad enough... oh well maybe one is going through some "verbal diarrhea"... It's okay... at least I saw what I deserve to see... Enough of all pretenses... Always trying so hard to uphold a GOOD image isnt it tiring... so unreal... no more comments... juz diff frequencies...

Although it's only gonna be afew days but I still feel kinda odd without u there nagging... "What time already still havent sleep... Tmr u got sch eh... Where is ur discipline!?" HAHA... Good luck for ur games and most importantly BE SAFE!
Thanks for the day and the sinful dinner... LOL...

Dying

I'm SOOO caught up... so many things on my mind that I dont know how to pen them down...

Juz...
You left me a scuba tank with NO AIR;
You're KILLING ME!!!

Run, Liying, RUN...

Ended sch early today... Went home and had lunch with mummy... Wanted to complete my BCM report after lunch but no drive at all... So I rested till ard 5plus and went for a run instead... The weather was lovely... The sun was so bright yet gentle... Occasional breeze... Everything SEEMED perfect... Put on my earpiece and I started chasing my own shadow... Dont ask me why... I know it's crazy... Even though I ran the usual route and at the same speed but today, every min is like hours... I dont seem to be able to reach the end I juz cant see it... My mind is so occupied that the music in my ears could barely be heard... Alot of pictures and scenes kept bubbling up in my mind... Things that seemed to happen only yesterday... so vivid; so fresh... Good or bad??? I dont know... I dont wish to think... There I go; running away again... where to??? No idea... Juz keep chasing pavement and shadow...

My Suay Day

A series of unfortunate events indeed... It's like my soul went floating somewhere... Totally not myself... First I messed up the lesson time... Woke up at 6am thinking that I have lesson at 9am, infact lesson starts at 10am on every tue... Well I realised it in time so not TOO bad... After bathing I went back to sleep obviously, and I ended up overslept!!! manx... Blur and half awake, I rushed out of the house wearing SLIPPERS when I have 2 lab sessions!!! I was like SHITTT!!! For one of my lab lesson I brought the wrong book... goodness me... The best part and joke of the day was that... I laughed so hard at raymond that my knee ram into the edge of the cupboard!!! ouch...it hurts... I thought it's gonna be juz a blue black but I kinda cut myself so the wound started bleeding... Liting and Zhiyan still have the cheeks to laugh... That's what u guys call SISTER ya??? well... that's abt it for my suay day... BAD ENOUGH!!!

Change...

First day of sch, whole morning I was filled with rage... A bad start obviously... A mixture of fluster and perplex threw me into abstraction for the whole day...

The same drop,
the same sound,
the same person only the different mood and frame of mind...
The absence of one sets everything to unfamiliarity...
Unacceptable changes,
I'm forced to embrace...
Words were not told,
My feelings not known...
"Why" is the word
but cast aside...
So much to express
I couldnt open my mouth...
Wondering inside,
will one ever know...

Sch's starting in 2 days time... I don't know I'm happy or sad... I've sooo much to do but I completed none during the term break... Home alone today, and I did nothing but rot... haha... as usual for me... I've been really moody these few days... I dont know why... It's like somethings there but it dont feel like it is... okay I'm talking in riddles... I don't even know what I'm talking abt now... I get lost easy I guess... Sometimes I know the answer to all my problems but I juz don't wish to see it... Juz need someone to confirm and reassure me...

Talked to Khui a couple of times... He claims that I've changed... Not so positive changes... haha... yah... maybe... I dont know... not as "hot blooded" as before for everything I guess... I tend to run away now I realised too... We r adaptable animal I think... Or rather we need to be... the earth still spin without us... the sun still shine if I die... no one can change that fact... so we gotta make changes to fit in... at the very least to survive in the situation that I'm living in... I hope u can still feel for me, khui and get what I'm trying to put across here... No matter how I change u guys will always sit somewhere in me... Too much that we've been through together to deny u guys from my VIP seats... haha...